There is no such thing as being “a victim of life”, at least for most of us here. If you think life is treating you badly, change it. It’s YOUR life. Life doesn’t have to be beautiful “when… (something happens)”; it’s beautiful now – it’s a question of whether you want to see the beauty in the every day. But of course, if you get to share the beauty of life with someone else who looks out for it too and who can appreciate that beauty as much as you do, well then that’s just magical. :)
Nobody ever wants to make mistakes. But sometimes the only way you’ll ever find out it was a mistake is if you took that risk and tried it anyway. And if it ends badly, try again. Or try something else. Learn. Grow. Pick yourself up and take the next risk. You can’t live life without living at all.