Time Vs. The Worthless Heart:

Interesting read. I used to feel this way, like I was somehow “running out of time”. It’s a little like sitting precariously on the edge of a cliff, the dramatic cartoon kind, overlooking, oh, who knows, the skeletal corpses of all the lions that have come before us, feeling the pressure of time a bit like a strong wind, or a malicious, defaced uncle, that’s constantly threatening to shove you down into the rotting abyss below.

You know what? It’s not true. You’ve heard this before: Time is what you make of it. Instead of saying “OMG I’m almost 30 and I haven’t achieved anything yet!”, I’m much more inclined to think, “Oh, look, I’m not 30 yet, so much time to explore and discover the world, so that at 30, I would have seen so much more, and I’m gonna be so much wiser than I am now.” One thing about time, if you use it well, it rewards you well in return. (Please replace 30 with whatever big zero or five number looms menacingly in front of you.)

Yes, we know that every day is a blessing. And still, we count our days like this – “2012 sucked so bad; I really hope next year is a good year for me!”, or “Another (X number of) days putting up with this crap! When is gonna end?!”, or “Deadline in two hours, WTF, how am I ever gonna do that?!”

I’ve done my share of thanking 2012. It was a bad year for me, if you knew what happened. But there was a lot of good in it too. That elusive silver lining. Those little things we constantly fail to see, because we’re so blinded by that frikkin’ black cloud, for goodness’ sake. It’s human nature, though. When we’re thrown into situations, it’s usually like putting on 3D glasses on simulator ride in an omnimax theatre – you know, it’s really overwhelming. All you see is what’s projected in front of you. That, and nothing else. It’s in your bloody face. How could you possibly see anything else? Actually I’ve learned that if you take off the glasses for a while, and look somewhere outside of the screen, or at your hands or any part of your body for a while, you’ll remember that you’re still exactly where you were when you started, and you don’t have to get swept up with everything that’s happening. Sometimes all you need is a time out.

Ah, that word ‘time’ again.

When you’re feeling down, best thing to do is give yourself time to feel better, then pick yourself up. When you’re feeling angry, best thing to do is give yourself time to calm down and look at things from a more rational perspective. And when you need to let go of something, well, that takes time too.

Though it’d be nice, especially in this crazy fast-paced world we live in, to be able to speed time up in these instances, you kinda need it. It’s a process. And like a lot of other things, the lessons you learn, the benefits you gain, are from the journey and not so much the destination.

We certainly seem to understand this concept when it’s something fun or happy or wonderful that we’re experiencing. Ah, that’s when we want time to slow down and in fact, we want to stay in that moment forever. But would you want to go back to being, say, 17 again, without all that you know now? I certainly wouldn’t. I like who I am now and I’d like to enjoy just being this me for now, thank you very much.

Time. Don’t bitch on it. It may not be your best friend (especially for women), but it doesn’t have to be your worst enemy. There is no rush to be the best, to have *this much* to show by *this date*, to conform to what being “an adult” means; and there’s certainly no rush to act like we’re 62 and ready to retire.

Life is crazy, it’s busy, it’s a million things happening at once on a super sonic speed amusement park ride. But just hop on, take a spin, see where it takes you. You will experience roller coaster highs and lows. There will be times you’ll feel every single bumper car bump. Occasionally it might feel as if you’re just spinning round in a teacup, with no real purpose or direction. You know what? Embrace it. ALL OF IT.

And. Take. Your. Time.


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